Thursday, February 1, 2018

When will I just trust.....

Seasons. Transitions. Flexibility. Adaptability.

These words have been our lives for the past 5 years.  Has it become our normal? In some ways, I would have to say yes. Our children have greatly enjoyed the many fun places we've stayed, other kiddo's toys, pools in some hotels and lots of airline flights! And passport stamped! What? Not something I ever experienced as a child. It has been such an incredible life and we know there is way more to walk in for our family. Yet, today.....I am sitting in a friends house searching for a place to rent here in San Diego for 5 months, and I am wondering if all of these choices the past 2 months have been right! I have contemplated what I really desire for our family; where I hope to live; what is my purpose(Yes...I have even walked down those thoughts); why is this tough this time?

It is in this place that I find myself again. Although, in the past I thought those thoughts while seeing my children struggle to enter a third-world country, with no running water and electricity for 5 days and stomach issues to boot! And here I am, sitting in the US...comfortable. Food is readily available and super super super easy to cook, power is always on, water is there(and hot and has pressure)....and I am pondering was this a good choice? I feel that the most important things to really sit and think on are 3 questions we thought through when we decided to move our family to Haiti to share the love of Jesus in another country.

Those questions are: What decision helps you to know your Heavenly Father better? What decision takes more faith and grows your faith more? And, what decision will bear more fruit?

We have taken this crazy step to breathe for 5 months and recuperate, and yet almost every day someone asks, "So, what are you guys going to do after?" Not that that is an unfair question. It completely makes sense in this culture of "go-go-go" and have a plan and make sure your safe and protected and provided for. I see the good and after being so far away from eyes have seen some major differences between His heart, and the way we live that is defined by culture and not Him. And I truly deeply want to live with His heart no matter what country I am in. So, I can now say that in both countries it is super difficult! I am so grateful for what I am learning and I hope to continue to be stretched and to be in this crazy place of the unknown. It does draw me close to Jesus. He is the only place that makes things clear. And even though we have no place to rent yet, I have Him. He is constant and His love is perfect and I know He is absolutely not disappointed in us.

I have felt His peace and been so comforted by sweet moments where He shows me He is using this crazy moving around situation for His glory. Little comments about how loving our children are. Or, people out of the blue, offering to help us find a home. He is doing things. Always. And clearly, I know He does not need us...He will do His great and loving will...and we get the amazing blessing of choosing to be a part of it and see Him work...or we can close our hearts and eyes and choose to miss out. I matter what season, transition, or crazy situation we get into, that my heart and eyes remain open to see His work and be available to be used by Him. 

So that's where I am today. We may be homeless, vehicle-less.....but we are His and after writing this...I am refreshed by what He is teaching me in it!

Monday, January 29, 2018

Time to write....

Writing...yes I am back. I have been told multiple times that this was something the Lord was leading me to do and I assumed that meant writing in my own private journal. Today I decided that I would step back into this world. Let me be honest, that writing on here is something I have steered away from because I just don't want to be seeking attention. I know me. I know my struggles and I really only want people to read this and hear something amazing that draws them closer to Him. So with that being said, please know my heart is for whoever reads this to be enouraged, challenged, grown, and drawn close to the One who leads my life and saved it! Jesus Christ is the absolutely all we need and I hope through my life that He gave me others will find Him!

Saturday, August 29, 2015

New Blog site!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Hey family and friends...I love you all so much and wanted to share that I am bloging on our team website now that we are in Haiti and we want to share His stories about our lives with not just family and friends but others that have a heart for the ministry here in Haiti. Please come and follow this site and my blog as I am bloggin much much much more often than I had in the past...HA!

Tuesday, May 12, 2015

Seasons of Great Strengthening

Wow! This blog has been calling me for a while and I haven't placed myself down to just plain and simple say "hello". "Hello".

I really want to update you all on everything that God is doing with our preparation to move...but you might stop reading too soon because so much is happening. Right now we are 70% funded for monthly support and our one time needs have been met! How awesome is our Lord! Every time Aaron and I sit and pray over specific needs or people the Lord is so faithful to move. We are still praying and trusting to be fully funded soon so that we can actually get to the funds to purchase our airline tickets!

In the midst of fun-raising:) we have continued to be busy with the kiddos. God has been opening Aaron's eyes and heart to walk in his role in God's design of a dad. And I have been stepping out of that discipline roll and more into nurturing my children. (We both discipline, but Aaron is the lead in it) It has been so amazing to see how I feel so blessed to nurture them, and as hard as it is for Aaron he is created to walk in that role and it is a blessing. As with anything we do to grow anyone closer to the Lord there is always a battle involved. It has NOT been easy. But so very blessed. Our love for each kid has grown to enormous amounts. We are also able to see each one of them walking in their individual design and God's amazing gifts in them. SO AWESOME! Raising eternal being's is no joke. Prayer is absolutely top priority in this battle.

Also...what an awesome thing it is as a parent to see one of your children call on the name of Jesus and trust Him with their lives! On April 5 Isaiah proclaimed at church his trust and surrender to Jesus Christ as his Savior and was redeemed! Such a huge day! PRAISE JESUS for what He did for us freely! So neat to see Him shine in our kids when they come and receive Him. The Holy Spirit just shining through them and growing them! AWESOME!

Thank you all for continuing with us on this journey. I am excited to begin to post more pictures. I know Facebook is the easy route for pics..but I want to let you all know I will share stories on here of all the awesome things God is going to allow us to walk through and the struggles of it too! Love you all deeply!

Thursday, March 5, 2015

Loving and being loved is all the pleasure, joy and happiness, of an intelligent being-Matthew Henry

"I don't need to ask." "We will figure it out." "I can sell more of what we have." "We really are just fine."  These are my typical thoughts. Yep, it is a huge step and major shift in my paradigm to truly reach out and ask for help. I have found that I trust very much in my frugality and great use of used items to provide what is only necessary for our family. I would pride myself in not spending much and getting ridiculously almost free items. I would lower every use we have in our house to cut cost and to save what we have to make it last. And in those good habits...I still believed that I was trusting the Lord to be provider. Yes, in the midst of these actions I knew I was doing my best to steward what He had given us and me as a wife. Truly most of these things I did and still do are good. Not bad. But as I sit and search my heart I find that there is a lot of "I" in the control seat of these actions. It is truly good to sit before the Lord and allow Him to show us even the smallest actions that we do can not involve Him. And He deserves to be completely in control. Besides, why would imperfect small human being, want to be in control??? Yes...I know He created me and in me are great things...only from HIM! Without Him I am nothing. Absolutely in need of a Savior and I need to continue to find myself saying, "You, God are enough." I have many many steps to go. I love this journey.
   In the midst of this journey and working this major area of my heart I find that He has great amazing ways of showing me His great great love for us. As many of you know we are selling all we have to live in Haiti. This past year we were super blessed to live off  Aaron's 401K as we both attended Impact195 and about a month ago the funds were almost out. Reality hit and we prayed about what He wanted us to do. Aaron prayed about stepping into part time work while we tried to fundraise, prepare for us to move to Haiti, prepare our team for Haiti, and homeschool and raise our kids!!! HA! If it was His will for Aaron to work nights that would just have to be a season to really press in, but He put it on our hearts to try to sell the Suburban since we truly don't need it here in California and it wouldn't be wise to try to store it while we are gone. So we began to look into selling it and the dealers offer's were pretty low. So after asking around we took the leap to try and list it on Craigslist...which I thought was crazy because, well, that's a lot of cash to have available for a vehicle! So, Monday rolled around two weeks ago and God just decided it was time to pour out! That morning we got approved for Food Stamps...which we had been without for 4 months and this is a HUGE help! Praise Jesus. Then that night we got a call from a man interested in the Suburban. He offered more than the dealerships...banked at our bank...and was ready to look at it in the morning at our bank! Tuesday morning he showed up...tested it..and transferred the money instantly! It sold in 6 days...just like our house did in Colorado when we decided to trust the Lord to move here!
   That night I posted a praise on the Impact facebook page and asked that they continue to pray for the Lord to provide a vehicle that would fit our family of 6 until we leave. And someone...I didn't know her...posted that I should call her. Ok...I sat down and called her. Here's how it went. "hello. I don't know you. We've never met. But I have seen your posts and your family has been on my heart. I graduated from Impact about 5 years ago. Man...I'm not the kind of person to let anyone use any of my vehicles....but God keeps putting you all on my heart. Here's the deal. I have a minivan that is parked. No one is driving it and I was about to cancel the insurance this week on it because I can't afford it. If you guys could pay for the insurance until you leave you can use it." I just started crying. WOW! God, you will never cease to amaze this child of yours. It is an unbelievable thing to think that You spoke to this woman, who doesn't know us at ALL, and she is willing to give us her van...and let me's a VERY NICE van! WOW! WOW! WOW! What amazes me even more is the opportunity to minister to those that You bring into our lives to bless us. When Aaron met with Jennifer to do the insurance he was able to find out that she had felt that she couldn't hear from the Lord anymore. She was struggling. And in that moment, You spoke through Aaron to her that she clearly heard You...she was loaning her nice van to complete strangers who had prayed for You to provide! You are doing so many things and so many times we are too busy to see it!
   Along with the van and food stamps...I am amazed at what the Lord is doing through our fundraising too! We are about 75% of our first time needs and 1/3 of the way on our monthly support! Praise Jesus! Yesterday, I was again taken back...first this past weekend our best friends...and  family, the Eckarts came to visit one last time before we leave the country. They blessed us abundantly with things our kids need for Haiti! Then yesterday afternoon a woman I have never met, from the Storehouse on Facebook, arrived to give us a girls sleeping bag and a mosquito net. To my surprise she had also gone to Costco and given us EmergenC, bandaids and some natural oil to help us!! Here's where I know that my God is just blowing my mind. We have been selling or giving away things that at one point I truly prized. And now I am glad to know that they are gone and the lives we will touch are coming when we move to Haiti! And people we've never met are being moved by our God to help us...and in HUGE ways! Thank you Father for reminding me that you never hold back and you're not a God who says that you only give to those that are perfect. You desire to give us so much and's not the used bad stuff...even though I love used things too! You amaze me Father. Thank you for your sweet reminders that You have already gone before us and prepared a way for us to get Haiti and if there is a need...YOU WILL PROVIDE through Your amazing love!

Saturday, January 24, 2015


I am so in awe of how great this season is. Now, it has not been easy at all, but so amazing to be in a place where we are in complete trust in our Provider! We knew in the back of our minds that God ultimately had been the provider of all we had before, yet even then we felt in small ways we had something to do with our income by working. And as the years went by that thought took over our trust in Him. Now God has us in a place of complete trust financially in Him to be provided for financially through the body of Christ! Honestly, we for sure came into this with many fears and apprehension to feeling like we were asking from people...but it so completely not about the money! It's asking them to be a part of the fruit and ministry God is going to do in Haiti and they get to be a part of it! Senders! Not only do they get us there but they keep us there! What's been amazing is that the Holy Spirit has gone before us and so many people we've connected with are so excited for His work!
   WOW! All of that to say I wanted to update everyone on what He is providing and what we need to get us there and keep us serving there! PRAISE JESUS we have over 50% of our one time needs. For our one time needs we needed $21,500...and wow we are over half of that! SO AMAZING. We have been blessed to have people come along side our monthly needs to keep us there with $525 commited monthly toward our goal of $3,000 a month! So that's where we are at and what we need to get us there and keep us.
   Some people have asked about giving physical items to us because they understand where we are moving is much different than San Diego and we may need some different things! So here is a compiled list of those things for our family! If you have them or know of anyone who may want to donate that would bless us abundantly!!!



  • 9 Large Suitcases (not to exceed 62 inches overall)
  • Family Essential Oils Kit (Medical)
  • 4 Mosquito Nets
  • 4 twin size plastic bed covers
  • 4 twin sets of sheets
  • 1 queen size plastic bed cover
  • 1 set queen size sheets
  • 4 kids, 2 adult warm weather sleeping bags that condense to small packing sizes!
  • 1 woman’s small frame, 1 mans framed backpacks for hiking
  • Printer(lazer color with ink to last one year) for homeschooling
  • Laptop
  • Bug zapper light
  • My Fathers World Curriculum for Kindergarten,2 & 3)
  • Homeschool supplies (4 boxes pencils,3 packs lined paper,2 box crayons)
  • Full Medical Kit
  • Hydration Kit
  • Childrens Multivitamins(2 year supply)
  • Adult Male & Female Multivitamins (2 year supply)
  • 6 boxes EmergenC
  • Non refrigerated boxes of Probiotics
  • Protein powder
  • Hand Sanitizer
  • Ibprofen(2 bottles adult, 6 bottles childrens)
  • Tylenol(2 bottles adult, 8 bottles childrens)
  • Cold Medicine(kids and adults)LOTS
  • Burn cream, Antifungal cream
  • Lots of Bandaids & Neosporin
  • Nebulizer for children
  • Kids Keens & long lasting tennis shoes

Thank you all for continuing to go on this journey with us! We love you dearly and are so grateful for your friendship and love!

Wednesday, December 31, 2014

Making this move get going!!!

     So you would think we didn't have much to get rid of, knowing that when we sold our house in Colorado we had 4 HUGE yard sales and so so so much sold on craigslist. Nope...we have plenty to sell. And so to move forward toward our move to Jeremie we are doing our first yard sale here. We have had a few yard sales here to raise funds for our short term trip to Haiti with the team then. So we are becoming yard sale pros! That's right! Ha...But truthfully the crazy part is that it's January and warm enough to do a yard sale. Cracks me up. Of course, as I write this outside our little place in San Diego it's the coldest it's been in a long time. Cold enough to have frost on the ground at 7pm!! There's snow 45minutes away from us right now. And to top it off my weather app on the phone even said that at midnight last night we could've had snow...which leads to another fun story....
    So the kids saw that my phone said it might snow. Whenever  we talk about snow the kids get super excited, especially Isaiah! So with his love for snow he started talking about what it would be like if it snowed in Haiti. So we, Aaron and I, responded that if it snows in Haiti Jesus is coming back! And of course Isaiah's eyes became a mile wide with excitement. And of course yesterday that excitement came back and flurried through our house as if it were snowing for real! The kids went to bed at normal time and around 11pm Rachel came scurrying out of her room a bit groggy. She was doing a little jiggle so we figured she needed to make it to the potty quickly. She was super out of it, which is pretty normal for her. She sleeps heavy! So once she actually came to I asked if she was ok. She then responded, "If it snows tonight, is Jesus really coming?" WOW! I giggled with her in her sweet tender excitement! It blessed my heart so much that her excitement to see her Savior kept her up in the night wondering if the snow would bring Him here. And she didn't want to miss Him! Her hunger for the Word is growing daily and her questions are deep and sincere. It is such a gift to watch her understand Who created here and want to get to know Him. And if I had any idea that He might show up in the middle of the night because of crazy unexpected snow...I might keep myself up in excitement too!

When will I just trust.....

Seasons. Transitions. Flexibility. Adaptability. These words have been our lives for the past 5 years.  Has it become our normal? In some ...