Monday, December 29, 2008
So I began to wonder why I miss something that I haven't spent much time in this past ....long while! I then press on and here comes the holidays. On December 19th I wake up with some serious lower back pain. Inside though and not in my bones. My usual answer to this pain is walk it off or take a Tylenol and nap when the kids sleep. I assume it's fun constipation from have my kiddos...had it ever since Malachi was born. Well...it didn't go away and when I peed it burned. So I'm begining to not be able to stand so I call the doc and they say I have to rush to urgent care...so Aaron comes home and we drive way across town...have my urine test while I'm screaming and moaning in pain...just blood...no infection and they say I need to get to the ER. Yep...near our house. And we catch traffic. Sweet Malachi had noticed I was in some sort of mess and said to me at home when I was laying on the floor waiting for Aaron..."mommy, I so sorry you're hurting."...but from then on was himself and kept repeating my moans and whining..it's ok. Rachel on the other hand was very concerned. She kept patting me and saying "momma" So I hop into the ER wheelchair and finally get in...the hospital was full. So my sis took the kids and Aaron and I spent a very long night in the hospital. After six hours in triage and a catscan I had apparently a extremely large kidney stone that would never pass and was probably there a very long time. So the next day I had surgery to remove it and a stint put in. I was on morphine in the hospital which didn't help until they'd given me about seven shots. Yeh...labor was easier in so many ways...and I had no epidural. So the week of holidays and family I was on vicodin, nausua meds and antibiodics. It was not fun. Although I am so thankful there was some fam here to help me with the kids I missed out on having the fun CHRISTmas in our first home I really wanted to have.
I am better now. I have some pain and I do have more tests to do....apparently my kidney stone was supposed to only contain 5-10% calcium phosphate and it was somewhere around 95% and the doc is very concerned. So I will see what that's all about and go from there. But today...I know that I am broken. I have not been in the Word consistantly in so long it angers me. The Lord has been with me so long in my life I remember calling Him my only Love. And it was how I understood being single and I had brought that into marriage in the sense that I love the Lord before my husband and love my husband before my kids. I miss that great drive I used to get to tell people about the Lord Jesus and my testimony...I miss the conversations I had with the Lord through His Word. And yet He reminds me now that we've talked every day. He's my first love and will always be...and He will never fail me. EVER. He is why I am the way I am...why my husband is so amazing, and why I'm here at this point....telling you I'm broken. Although that Bible means so much to me that's not the reason I said yes to Aaron...no way! Aaron loves the Lord above anything and anyone and lives for Him in all he does. His passion for the Word and knowledge of what the Lord's teaching him through it is amazing. When I knew I'd marry him...the day we started courting, it wasn't that I needed a "sign" in the form of a bible I knew Aaron was it because he loved the Lord, the Word, and was full of joy and humble and had a wonderfully fun sense of humor. And I miss that bible because it is special and I pray that the person that found it kept it to read. I really hope it guides them to know the Man I've loved most of my life and lived for, no matter what any friend or stranger thought of me. He loves me unconditionally and died for me. That's amazing. So...I sit here tonight I have my old beat up bible I gave to Aaron the night of our wedding and know it's still His Word. That's all I need. That refreshing sweet Word of the Lord and even though the outside of that bible doesn't have my married name...it still was me...but I am who I am now...a wife, mom...lover of Jesus Christ. So....that is why I am broken...and I think I'm so happy to be.
Friday, November 14, 2008
And of course a Mickey Mouse fruit bowl...he'd rather have fruit than cake!
Here's sweet Tanner and precious Rachel puttin the moves on his food!
Gorgeous Avery had a blast with Rachel trying to eat Malachi's fake food!!
And his big gift from Nanny and Grampy....a wood train track set!!! Yeh...he loved it but we don't have a place to set it up yet...so he's been super distracted by cooking with his fake food!
Tuesday, November 11, 2008
Tuesday, November 4, 2008
This will most deffinetely be in his senior yearbook...no matter what!!!
This year was a blast going to one of the local pumpkin patches with my sister, bro-in-law and niece. The kids had so much fun and of course we got a great deal on a few pumpkins to carve and eat the seeds from them. So here's our venture and our crazy carving ideas...enjoy!
So here's Uncle Brians creation!
And here's Auntie Rachel's ...she copied it from the carving set...but it's fun!(sorry the pic is sideways..opps)Here's a few pictures of Aaron's...which took a few days...it's the logos of his work...Bedroom Expressions and Oak Express. He did great!
And last...my favorite morning drink...decaf or caf...I DON'T CARE...I love it!