So here's an update on what's been going on. I have finished work (last Wednesday was my final day). It was very sobering handing in my keys to the building knowing that I am stepping out of a role that I had been in for so many years. The time at home has been a great blessing. We have been able to start packing furniture and other items to get ready for our move on the 21st. Our kids have responded very well to me being at home and Andrea is loving the help. God has been providing what we need at the right time during this process. First with the step of faith in resigning and getting an offer on our home right after that conversation. Another with God providing a free night's stay for us w/ dinner and breakfast included for after we close on our home. God also provided us a place to rent in San Diego on my final day of work last week. We have had many conversations about Christ, hopefully in some way furthering His kingdom, and have heard many encouraging words from our friends and family.
At this point I want to share scripture and what God is teaching me. "Do nothing from selfishness or empty conceit, but with humility of mind regard one another as more important than yourselves; do not merely look out for your own personal interests, but also for the interests of others. Have this attitude in yourselves which was also in Christ Jesus, who, although He existed in the form of God, did not regard equality with God a thing to be grasped, but emptied Himself, taking the form of a bond-servant, and being made in the likeness of men. Being found in appearance as a man, He humbled Himself by becoming obedient to the point of death, even death on a cross."
Philippians 2: 3-8
I have been learning that I am so selfish. Just a few thoughts here: Do I truly regard others as more important than myself? What would my life look like if I regarded my wife, my neighbor, my friends and enemies as more important than me?
Secondly, how humbling is it to know that God emptied Himself for me? for all of us? even to the point of submitting himself to becoming a human and taking the form of a bond-servant. He became obedient to not only die, but to die in the most painful way...for me...for us. How often have I emptied myself for Him? I know that there have been many times in my life I have emptied myself for work. The feeling of working so many hours or so long and so hard that on my first day off, I am so exhausted all I can do is sleep or take naps because I have just emptied myself for my employer. I know I have emptied myself for sports. The feeling of going out and playing as hard and as fast as I can. There was a saying in high school football, "Leave everything on the field, when the game is over, win or loose, you want to know that you gave it everything you had, and in that there is no shame." In my life and pursuit of Christ, am I emptying myself for Him? Win or loose, when I die, did I leave everything on the field? The crazy thing is, we all know when a football game is going to end, usually in 60 minutes. We don't know when our lives will end, could be tonight, next month, next year, only God knows.
In saying this, I want to encourage and challenge myself and everyone, let's empty ourselves for the sake of His kingdom. Everything else I have emptied myself for is temporary, and gives temporary pleasure, but emptying ourselves for Him gives us something we can take with us when we die. Is there really going to be anything better than to hear the words when we die "well done good and faithful servant, enter in the joy of your Master" instead of "depart from me workers of lawlessness, I never knew you."
Saturday, August 3, 2013
In the middle...that's where I like to type...and that's really where I like to find myself. In the middle of His presence. I am sorry we are not quite to the point where we are blogging daily ...it will come. Please stay with us on this journey.
So many amazing things have happened since God kicked us firmly and opened our eyes to the greatness of being followers of Christ.
Aaron has 2 days left of work...2 DAYS! It is absolutely surreal to me and him. It really feels like he's just taking some time off but we both know this is time on and we are raring to go. It has been a rollercoaster...and that's no joke. We knew that making the decision to leave his job, our home, our stuff, our close family, our kids school, our church and our friends to be devoted to Jesus and spreading the Truth would not be easy. I am grateful that we are in a place where we can recognize those struggles soon enough before they swallow us.
The buyers of our home delayed on signing the inspection objection and we were told they were considering backing out!!!
I was stumped. We had struggled with communication the past three days with two early garage sales and Aaron working the next two nights late so I was asleep when he got home. We were not connecting and we knew it. When this came to us I think...no know...that we realized the absolute importance of praying together as often as possible and making ourselves make time for Him. HE IS WORTH IT!
The next day Aaron calmly said "good news, the buyers are fine and signed the papers..."Tears filled my eyes. Up until that day I had not doubted this venture...but it crept in my mind and I wondered. Then I realized that in the middle of that day I found myself in tears telling my Savior that I wanted this. I want to go and share His word. I have struggled with continuing my mom role and managing the sale of our home and managing our kids(while Aaron still works...lots of hours)...did I already say that? And in the midst of that I hadn't sat and realized that this is not just for Aaron. We knew when we met that our strong and passionate faith in Jesus Christ put us together. We were in stores together sharing the gospel when we were engaged...unashamed and we both knew then and we know better now that the strengths Aaron has and my strengths make us one in this journey to save souls. It is so absolutely exciting for me to be enrolling in the school too. Yes...I am nervous to step out of my mom role and wife role to grow...
grow! Wow...how great it will be for my children to see me pursue my passion...Jesus Christ and for them to see Aaron and I sharing the gospel just as we've encouraged them to.
God is so good.
I will share one more story that happened last week at Aaron's work...a lady and gentleman were in the store shopping and the lady went up to pay for her furniture. The man was her boss and he accidentally knocked over an accessory and it broke and scratched a table. Aaron told him not to worry about it the table will just go into scratch and dent and it's fine. The man just couldn't let it go. Aaron told him it was a small accessory and the owner of Furniture Row would want him to reassure the man that it was an accident and it's ok. They left and the next day the woman came in to pick up her purchase. She told Aaron that her boss couldn't stop thinking about what had happened and how Aaron handled it. She handed Aaron an envelope and Aaron said it was no big deal over an inexpensive accessory. After she left he opened the envelope to find a voucher for us...the man runs the Embassy Suites near Centerra here. The voucher is for us to stay a night in a suite and all meals covered! WHAT?? God is sooooo very good to us. We had just found out the buyers needed to do the closing at 4pm on Aug. 21 so we would have to find some place to stay the night here before we drive to Grand Junction...thank you Jesus for providing for us.
Most of all the things we have been so blessed with are the people that want to here our story and why we are doing what we're doing. I think in the middle of the chaos we forget that people are reading our story or telling each other it and really trying to wrap their minds around how crazy it sounds. The Lord's Word says clearly to "Go and make disciples"-Matthew 28:19. Just like Francis Chan is so great at explaining this...it doesn't say "sit and memorize what I say"...."gather your friends and study these words."...NO...it says GO! And we finally are!